Hi. Sorry, Onsugar is not active anymore cause I'm bored w it already. I've moved to tumblr. I will not delete Onsugar cause somehow there's alot of memories were to update in there since I was using blogger & livejournal. So I've choose not to delete it. Precious memories for me. Tsk! Fine me @ Tumblr! This doesn't mean I'm running away from you people okay.

I choose not to listen to others, I'm on my own life now. I'm leaving everyone here. Especially you, I've tolerate enough. I heard enough. Enough of everything. I'm tired. I'm taking back all my words. From now on, I'm gonna be full of ego. I follow on my own rules, not yours no more. And I'm gonna stand on my own feet. I will be v v independent after this. You could be happy~

After all, I've learned something new. Friends will not be yours forever.

Damn!

Definition of Friendship :

Friendship is the cooperative and supportive relationship between two or more people. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, affection, and respect along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each other's company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as the exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors. Yet for some, the practical execution of friendship is little more than the trust that someone will not harm them.

She told me once tt she could replace Aby. And the next thing is, she talked bad thing about my Mom. Hurting my 'friend' feelings. Maybe alot more but this is like public. I pity her actually. But sorry eh, my Aby don't act like this. So, if you wanna replace Aby think twice. She's much more better eventhough at a time she had her own split personalities. I admit, I couldn't tolerate her, she don't understand my life, we don't share secrets and etc. Still I don't care much cause I love to see her happy when she is me. tt's e most important thing for me.

At this v moment, I claim tt tonight is not a good night at all. I hate arguement! I hate hatred! Because arguement leads to something bad. I'm out of this shit. e way we treat each other sucks! Say whatever you want, I'm gonna be deaf each time you gonna talk to me. Maybe I'm shifting to somewhere else where nobody could know everysingle thing about me. Sorry~

Hate my friends forever?
Hate you and your love, forever.

Cuppycake came over and fetch me from work. It was a surprise cause he didn't even tell me tt he would be coming over. We had late dinner at Coffee Shop wearing school uniform. HAHAHAHA! Eventhough we met just fo ahwile, I'm happy to see him.

I miss my previous hair. (picture above)    
Urghhh!

Zhappy is so irritating~

Awww.. So cute but I hate cat forever!

Baby, you want this is it?

Ben's & Jerry + The Cathay w Cuppycake in e evening.
I love you Fawed.

We learn alot from misuderstanding, arguement and confession.
We are working v hard this time.
I'm happy to see you happy sweetheart.

Goodnight.

I'm happy are you happy too sayang?
Somehow you always make my day w smile and laughter. And you would always pamper me w those hug and kisses. How do I repay back everything to you? I just love you too much, Fawed.

I realise tt my blog is full w Fawed. Everyday Fawed, so? Why care so much? Your problem is it? No? Then shut up :D

Happy 18th Birthday Airirusli.

Left w 5 more weeks of schooling sayang :D

Friday :

• Bugis w Cuppycake & Chipmunk.
• Had Ban Mian noodle for dinner ^.^
• Downtown East for Anna's Chalet.
• I love sleeping w Cuppycake because he look so cute.
• I love you, Fawed.

Saturday : 

• Headed his house.
• Cabbed back home.
• Working.
• a.p w Mok & Wan.
• Thailand & Indian fighting outside 7 eleven. HA HA HA!
• Otf w Cuppycake for ahwile.
• Prepaid die!

Hi! I'm back from school + v bored right now. I can't go for my beauty sleep right now cause I don't feel so. While doing my nails, I was browsing thru all e pictures in my lappy. Alot of beautiful memories was brought back but somehow it's just useless. Tsh! Ohh, and I found 2 pictures tt I wanted to update at here. he he he! Okay mepek la Meen. I wanna go shopping so badly. I've list down everysingle thing tt I decided to buy. Macam cukup je duit gaji nye eh? he he. I realise one thing, I've been busy working and schooling till I've got no time to enjoy myself. Haiyah~ Okay enough of blogging, it's better for me to go sleep before someone shout on me. ha ha ha ha! Bye bye bye bye bye bye ~

Aku rindu kau macam na mampus la fuck! Jmpe nanti ye sayang.

Tinguk tu Taqim nye jangut. Alahai ~
I miss my straight hair ):

He had his own ego, I had mine at the same time. When will be back into one piece? Time will tell but is it tt long? We are in our different world for now. tt's what I realise. We meet each other almost everyday in school but we look so akward when we are left together. We acted like e first time we've met. Adoi, susah ah na cakap. Tsk! Urgh, crap sia.

I love you girls♥

come back and set me free.  love is a mystery. distance is killing me. you taking me round and round. am i am i dreaaaaming~ come back i need you now.

I should have not go to school today. Bloody fucker~ If not I will be having my beauty sleep till afternoon. Aww, I miss waking up v v late siaa. We wasted our time at school for a few hours then headed to Bishan library cause we couldn't tolerate e weather just now. Trained back home. Had my beauty sleep for ahwile while waiting for Zuzu Chan to msg me. So yesterday my Zuzu Chan planned to watched "Darah" at CWP w me. So yeah, we had our dinner before e show start. Rating: 1 thumb up. I totally don't understand e movie at all. I don't find it interesting cause the story line sucks! The killer is a physco I could say. And I was freezing in e cinema like fuck cause I just wear short pants and t-shirt. Pek didn't get to tag along cause he got date. Meet up soon ah pekzxz!

My room is in a mess. No more bibik ): I'm so used to it already and now I have to clean everysingle thing on my own. Ohh, how sad for you Meen.

I feel much more sad because I'm missing my cuppycake right now ): When will we be meeting baby? You busy, I busy, both of us busy. Still, I sayang you. Hahaha! Okay, crazy bitch!

Baby is back from Hainan but she brought along her flu to S'pore. Hope she doing fine right now. Sorry for neglecting you, I'm v busy for e moment now. After my course finish I'll be spending my time w you including Aby too. Yaloh, org tu da sakit club ah? Got used to it already ah B, every Wednesday night? Ha ha ha. Wait for everything to finish then we will enjoy together okay. I promise e both of you.

I've just upload some pictures at my multiply. Feel free to view it okay?

No more shits to update. See ya around readers.

Good nights!

I woke up late today cause yesterday night I couldn't sleep back after having some arguements. He called me early in e morning, somehow everything now is fine back. I'm sorry baby ): Stichy called me also, had some talks w him. So today in school I skipped BEG, went for BEO but Mr Hee let us go for break. My Zuzu Chan was at my school saw Sin also at canteen :D Pity her, hp hilang. Ayu had something on and she insist of gg home. Left me and Tejaa so got no choice we also went off. I decided to acc her to John Little CWP since I've got ntg to do. Saw Myra, hugged her. Headed home and had my beauty sleep till cuppycake called. Kacaw jee~ Had dinner w family and now blogging, bloghopping and chatting.

Tmr will be bringing lappy to school cause we need to finish our fucking project. TSK!

I'm truely sorry about last night baby. I only want you to trust me on what I'm doing from now on + spent some time w me + e promises we've made at home & playground. Not much, just tt only. Can you? But still last night was my fault, I love you still baby ): Forgive me will ya?

You gotta show me love.

Hi! Happy 1 year 3 or 4 months to us. I also couldn't remember our special date actually. Haah! But we only know 15th is e special day on every month. Correct? We didn't celebrate this time round. Maybe we would be celebrating e next week. Thanks Baby for giving me another chance. This time round, I would like to use this opportunity to prove to tt I could change to a better person just for you. The last time I always gave up on you easily but now, I will try my best not to cause you are e only one who have been making my life change into something nice and wonderful. I just love when you are there by my side. I'm sorry for everything. Yes, I've been saying sorry at my post for a lot of time cause I feel so bad for treating him like a shit e last time. I love you, Fawed. Muahs!

I skipped school today just to see Baby off to airport. She left me for four days straight to Hainan. I make a surprise for her this time round I planned w Syahmi. She was surprised to see me at there, gave her a big hug before she leaving Singapore and tears started to roll down. Mummy ; "Why you cry? She only go for four days only." I just can't see people cry la actually. Thanks Syahmi for e help :D

Work was crazy. Loads of laughter w As + Azura came over to our outlet. So all of us went crazy tonight. Haah!

I've abandon my fb for now. I'm running out of time this month. Alot of shits to do. I'm left w 7 weeks of schooling. Damn fucking fast I tell you. Yet, I haven't prepare any of it. I wanna watch movies! Jum?

Goodnight readers.

Finally I get to meet my two darlings above here. he he! So happy to see them. Get to hug them v v v tight early in e morning. Alot of stories was shared. Alot of projects need to be done. Alot of revision needed to go thru also cause exam is coming real soon! Damn, haven't prepare any of it. Tsk! Ohh yeah, not to forget we meet angels at canteen. Double happiness eh today. Lols! I went to get my Golden Village membership card :D What else?

Taqim: "Bamdong, kom kom, layychii." 

HA HA HA HA! Certain people get what I was saying. 

Dear Bestf, you have been there for me when I was in a bad state. Whenever I need a shoulder to cry on you was there trying to cheer me up. Irritate me till I scold vulgarities on you. Watched movie every month like crazy. You spent alot of your money on me like nothing happened. Those hugs & kisses when we are having those stupid projects. Got emotional disorder, stories and secrets to tell. But where does all those sweetest things had vanished to? We've drifted far apart this time and it's all because one fucking thing happened. Right? You realise and I realise it too but we pretend like as if nothing happened. Still smiling but what is inside your heart thinking now? Same as myself too, bestf. Remember this?

"Hey Meen, I was about to sleep but something pop up in my mind. I know that you are feeling upset with things that happened lately. As you Bestf, i really share the pain and feel it too. See, tt day you cried how worried I am. i just want to be there when ur down cause you never fail to make me smile. Just want to tell you tt our r'ship is my first priority. And im scared to lose a special friend who show care and love like you. Goodnight sweetest bestie. Love you so much. Muahs!"

I was the one changing right now. I admit, I've been avoiding from you and e rest. I don't know why? I don't have e anwser to it. Yes, I am still little bit mad w you and it takes alot of my fucking time to cool down about tt matter. But still I've never ever tried to abandon you alone cause you told me once you need someone to take care of you right? You know tt you and e rest are also part of my life but what I feel is tt everyone has changed. And I feel so akward having them around me. I don't know what else I wanted to change for myself. I'm truely sorry to Closest Love for everything tt had happened between me and Bestf matter. I know some may not like it. I love you, cause you people will always be there in my heart. Promise.

 
"Teh tarik goncang-goncang. Murtabak tetek!"

Hie, Zhafran bin his handsome father! I guess I was e last one to know about you. I'm no longer mad at you about those stupid matter. Cause I know you care about me and stuff. I really appreciate it e other day when I was stucked in Geylang you wanted to help me. Thanks for all e help for project work. It wasn't a waste of knowing you actually. You always makes me laugh like a mad girl w your fucking irritating voice and got irritated by me. ha ha! You was e first one calling me 'Girl' in Baba's tone. Cb! Thanks for all e cab treats after club. Somehow I was happy e other day to see you smile real wide when Raudah replied your msg because of me. But then I really hope nothing will happened to you. I care about you too Zhap! Sorry to Wan lurb too!

Lastly, I love you Fawed endlessly. People are talking about us. Do you care? I don't care at all sayang. Cause I'm happy to be back w you. Don't ya think so? Say yes eh~ he he he! Muahs, muahs, muahs!

Finally I get to spent my time w this cutie cuppycake of mine. he he he. He was late meeting me + he forget to bring along my driving book. Two thumb up for you sayang. So, I extend another half and hour at work while waiting for him to come. So good right? We headed IMM, and had my late lunch at Swensen. Didn't go for break cause I think it's a waste of time. ha ha ha!  After tt, we headed bbdc cause I need to top up money + book theory lesson. I brought along lappy cause I know he will be bored alone + he will check every single thing in my lappy like used to do on him e last time. HA HA HA HA HA! Bused back home. I love you lots more than you always say to me :D

Previous night w Aby was a disaster. The both of us got drunk. Pardon me again, THE BOTH OF US GOT DRUNK! Nobody was there w us. I took care of her even though I was drunk. Party like a mad girl at Butterfact till we forget every single thing tt happened but I got my own limit. So don't worry ahh! Somehow it was a harsh night though but I just kept myself to tears cause I hate to see her in tt condition. I admit, I'm not a good friend to take care or control people's emotional. I felt like a bimbo at tt time cause I don't know what to do next. But then Fawed was ashamed for everything. I'm truly sorry about tt night.

Thursday I stayed at home. I treat my family a small dinner feast tt they used to give me eat since small. I bought a Guess wallet for Mom. I'm happy to see them happy like this. So long for not having a family dinner and talking crappy stuff. ha ha ha. Nenek is at Busu house for e time now. New bibik will be coming, see how it goes? I asked Nenek alot of question till she can't even answered it. ha ha! She's so cute whenever when she have to eat her medicine.

We had alot lot lot lot lot lot of talk between each other. We confess every single thing what we've done for e previous months. Even though it was such a heart pain stories but what to do? We really need to accept everysinglething for e one you love. Correct not? We was talking about enjoyment cause I've started to go club w his permission. But I know, he won't like it if I go w/o him. Tui mah? ha ha. Your jealousy can see taw. I'll just wait for you to get legeal than we will be enjoying together okay? We are trying to make an open relationship. Trying our best to trust each other. Trying not to argue for small little stuff. Trying alot of things la, to make this relationship be a strong one unlike e previous one. Understand?

And now I'm  waiting patiencely for him to reached home safely till Kovan (:

Sorry for e lack of update was busy working + w e guy below. Too little time to update. Life has been so good w him back together. Tried to change for him and be a better person. HA HA! Macam paham. I've been spending lots lots lots lotsa of my time w him. We are working on our relationship after alot of shits happened to us. I was wondering in one day how many time would you say "love you" to e person you love? ha ha ha. Somehow I manage to find my happiness back again eventhough there's some broken pieces tt was stucked in my heart. And it will cure w someone's love and care.

Janie is w him. So now I will be taking care of Radhit (above picture). Yeay! Cash rolling in, I'mma happy pig for today only! Girls, what you waiting for tonight? Let's enjoy and have fun okay?  

Yesterday, I went to enroll @ bbdc w Baby. After tt headed ECP to meet this guy above and his friends too. We went to played bowling. I'm so sucked at playing bowling. Pfft! One of those days at downtown, I went to watched Phobia2 w him and his friends. Before my birthday, we had our dinner at Far East Ramen Ten. Wonder about at town till we headed Iluma, played arcade and we got Ben's & Jerry's ice-cream :D What more ah? Too many, but I forget ah. I love spending my time w you :D

I forget to tell you people tt I've delete my tag acount for "some" reason. And I'm active at fb for now, so find me there okay love! Somehow yesterday night I was viewing boss pictures at fb and I saw one of his pictures using my pose above when we first time webby! ha ha ha. Damn, long time never meet boss. Miss having those gossip and talks w him. Aiyahhh tambhi~

I missing my two darlings terribly. Damn, cepat la bukak school. Aku na hug ne dua ekor babi ne. Ayu, I got lots to tell you taw gendut! he he. Love you both hell lots la cibai~

This cute baby of mine like to take picture at my lappy. Cute isn't he?

Raya w Angels was awesome eventhough it was only eight of us. Sume kaki paitaw like always. Hari Raya pictures at here.

Goodbye!

I walked off from your life once cause I couldn't tolerate everything. And wanted to let go everysingle thing tt I had in my hand. But then deep inside I felt regret for walking off just like tt w/o saying anything. I thought w/o you by myside will change to something nice and happier but it became worst. 4 months of not contacting was horrible we had this hatred between each other. But now... What happen? Every love story there will always be an ending.

Having someone in my life back again was my own choice. I admit I do alot of mistake towards him. But for now, I realise tt he is e only guy left in my life tt could tolerate my shits & nonsence. At a time, I wonder to myself why do I act so bossy & self-fish towards him e last time. Sometimes, you really need to listen to their explaination before saying out everything. I know, I didn't treat him well e last time. I wanted to give a big space for him, me and his friends. But I was wrong. So right now after he had proved to me everysingle thing since e day we started to contact back. I decided to gain his trust back. I would like to give him another second chance but then time will tell everything. We won't know what will happen next? I know people will be talking about us. To hell w them I'm gonna pretend I don't know anything. I'm gonna throw away my fucking attitude tt you hate it so much. And gonna change to a good girl tt you wanted me to be. Anyway, I don't want to make any decision this time round. Let's see whether you could handle and treat me everything w your own love, care, happiness and everything sweet. Okay? So we had alot of confession just now at Downtown so tt we won't be having some stupid arguement after this. Amin. Can you teach me how to control my anger? Please ):

So for this few weeks I've been busy w work + this guy here. Butterfact w Aby was average because e place is full w chinese masam! Ha ha. Afterall it was awesome to dance w your twin retarded at e dancefloor. Finally legeal club eh~ LOLS! I've received e stuff tt I've ordered and I'm v happy + satisfied w it. He he! My tummy feel like eating something nice. Who could fulfill my tummy? Seoul Garden anyone?

Good nights!

From today onwards, I'm legeal to buy drinks, ciggarettes, book hotel, go club and everything. But then I've stop smoking eversince I started to work back. I don't want to smoke anymore, forever! I want to be a good girl and obey my parents. I will stop those bad habits of mine. I don't want to make any trouble to anybody including my parents. I just want to concentrate on my studies and work. I don't wish to be inlove but yet I wanna get attached cause I got v jealous when seeing couple acting so romanticly infront of me. Nabey! And this is my promise to everybody. Trust me for this time aye.

This year birthday celebration was abit different from e previous year. Alot of surprises was made by them but firstly I would like to thanks everybody who wished me last night. I didn't reply any of your msg-es because I was busy playing fb. HA HA! Really really sorry lo. Alot of thing happened on 29 september. A small surprise was made at Taka Garden by Closest Love. I was totally shocked tt Fawed was there to surprise me also. I cried when he gave me 2 mooncake tt I wanted for my birthday + he made radhit also. Closest Love bought for me a Zara top. Baby gave me this huge balloon and a lolipop pillow in it. Ayu came over CWP and gave me this cute bear in a bottle. Edwin and e rest surprise me w 2 donut cake + he sabo me at his outlet. Azura miss e chance and I miss her damn lots. Cepat balik! Lastly, Boss gave me a warm hug + a peck of kiss at my forehead outside bns. Wahliao~ I will be smiling from ear to ear after this. LOLS! Anyway, Ayu Fawed Bestf & Baby made this plan actually. See, that's why I love them bits to bits.

What he told me was e truth. Wished hard and it will come true. He called me when I was at hq. I didn't manage to picked up his call after Aby told me tt he tried to contact me but couldn't get thru. I did receive a wierd number but I didn't called back cause I thought it wasn't an important call after all. But then I lose tt golden chance for not picking up his call or calling him back. Alahai~ Wasted sia Meen!

Somehow, B Masam's convo last night make me sad. And tears started to roll down on my cheek. I don't understand what he meant actually. I do treasure all e sweet time when we are together. You have been my pillar of strength after alot of shits happened in my life. You was there for me everytime I need a shoulder to cry on. Your jokes and stupid actions makes me laugh and smile. You have been so nice to me since e first met at a.p. But after tt night, I felt so bad for telling you off like tt. I don't think it's e right time to talk about this thing yet. I'm truely sorry if I got hurt you tt night )=

Sorry for throwing alot alot alot alot alot of my anger to everyone lately. Sorry for everything.

Thanks Fawed for e night kiss before you went off. PICTURES UPLOADED! Go and view at my multiply.

Goodnights!

I wake up this morning and I got a bad dream. Tears keep on rolling, I don't know where to hide it. I'm not okay, I'm not fine at all. Alot of things playing on my mind. I don't know what more shit will happen next? I'm a sad turtle )=

Nenek came over my house last night w Bibik also. My house seem much more better than e last time. Mom has been smiling away cause she like her house in this manner. Pantat! I couldn't make it to go Kak Nana house today. I'm sorry Addah & Taqim, kirim salam dorg taw.

I feel like crying right now. But then i find it stupid to cry over some stupid stuff. This two days Fawed has been such a sweety pie! HA HA~ He acc me otf when I'm gg to work + otw back home. How sweet could he be eh? He send me pictures of us e last year. I had so much of laughter till I can't stop. HA HA. Busted sia. Thanks for cheering me up thai :D Today is 25th! Fawed remind me of him. Nabey kau! Bikin org sedih je ): Hope he's doing fine in there. Hope he remember today's date. MEEN~ He's not yours remember? Fucker~

Good nights! Maybe not good but bad )=

I feel like a piece of shit right now. Everything is out of hand again. You wanna know something? We had this arguement because of tt blackie. And because of this blackie everything ruin. Don't ya realise it? Who's e one covering someone bontot? Can you tell me straight to my face? Is it me or you? You hated my friends, I just keep quiet. You people did something tt I hated so much to my friend. And I lost tt person just because of you people. I made you like a precious diamond to me. And now when I wanted to get revenge back, you got mad because I irritate your pict comment and stuff. Actually what e hell you want from me? You told me I'm your Bestf but did you ever share anything w me? Instead w someone else? How lovely is it? Don't you think so? So wht's e use of calling me Bestf? You got jealous e other night at SP just because I dance w him. When you grind some other girls did I say anything? Hell no! If you respect me, you should respect my friends too. Just like you hate them means you hating myself also. Damn it! I find tt this time is so irritating w everyone nonsence! Have you ever realise tt we are just "Teman Stim" only? Don't ya think so? Tssssk~ You had some problem e other time w your mom & sister. Did you told me? NOPE! I guess it's better you told tt blackie right? Who am I to you now? I need you fucking explainantion to me. Yes, my words are v harsh towards you at e msg. And now you know what's my attitude looks like? Much more worst than some other girls out there right? Can you tolerate? No? Letting go? I don't mind also. You got your blackie and some other girls. What for you wanna feel regret? They will understand you more than I do. They will give you love, care and everything tt you want. Motherfucker~